WORLD PEACE.

Because I miss you and I don't know what to do.

2011-01-21T08:30:00.000-08:00

It`s been a week and 2 days since I last had a talked with my boyfriend. Ha-ha. It`s been a long time now and we still haven`t had a chance to talk. I miss him. I wonder if he knows that. I`ve been trying to contact him through FB, friends, letters and whatever but I still can`t reach him. I don`t know why he`s being ignorant. I miss him. I know he knows it. I know he misses him too. I`m hoping he still feels the same way as he feels before towards me. I`m hoping he`s still in love w me. I`m hoping.................

If ever you, my boyfriend, pass by my blog will you please give me a call? Or go to McDo near your school and my house. I`ll be there... Everyday.. I`ll wait for you no matter what. I don`t care if I`ll stay there alone. I don`t care if I`ll wait for nothing... But atleast I made an effort to see you and talk to you. I miss your face and your arms. I want to hug you really tight. I`m tired of waiting but I can still do it. I promise, I`ll wait for you. Rain or shine. I`ll be there. I miss you and I love you. :)

Hay.

2010-12-01T11:06:00.001-08:00

So. For the past few months, I’ve been having issues w my best friend. All of our friends are aware of that. We tried to fix it. We fixed it. I thought everything’ll be back to the way it was before but I find myself dumbfounded. We never will go back to the way we were before. We used to tell each other our problems. We talk on the phone. We hang out. We exchange text messages but none of them are done now. We don’t share our secrets anymore. We don’t ask for one’s help. I admit, yes, I don’t talk to her about my problems ‘cause obviously, I’m problem free. Except for the complications I’m having w my body right now. She doesn’t text me anymore. We no longer talk on the phone. Instead, she asks for her other friend’s help. She has a problem and instead of talking about it w me, she’d rather talk to her other friends about it. It hurts that she doesn’t want my help. It hurts that she doesn’t trust me the way she trusts her other friends.

I FEEL USELESS AS HER BEST FRIEND. WELL, LIFE GOES ON….. I WON’T LET HER HOLD ME BACK. IF SHE DOESN’T WANT TO SHARE HER PROBLEMS W ME, FINE W ME. I WON’T SHARE MINE EITHER!!! :( AND IF SHE FOUND A BETTER BEST FRIEND, FINE W ME. I’M GONNA FIND SOMEONE WAY WAY BETTER THAN HER !! UGH

2010-09-23T10:39:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since I last saw my friends. I seriously miss them. I miss how everything seem so right every time I'm with them. I miss sharing stories with them, laughing out loud, talking endlessly during class hours, running and saying "Guys! may kwento ako." with my hand in my head and shaking. Damn. Good 'ol days. If only I didn't messed things up. So, maybe I regret being careless and so. I have't found my true friends in my new school. I hope to find one soon. I'm also hoping that my so-called friends, the ones I left, would stay true to me 'cause they're the only one I believe will be with me through everything. I want to grow old with them. I hope nothing changes. Highschool is the best part of my life. I hope to finish it with flying colors. Amen!

2010-09-23T04:43:00.000-07:00

So, I guess, I'm more mature now. I've found my weaknesses and my strengths but I'm still not that strong when it comes to boys. I mean, I can't help my self when a guy hurts me. Well, everyone does but for me to cry over silly things. Like for example, there's this guy I like, he likes me back but he talks to a lot of girls. I get hurt easily. Like srsly. I try to understand that I'm just a girl who's here for him until he finds someone better. But for once, I'd like to be enough. I'd like to be the only girl this guy will ever think about. I'm not asking for boys to like me. I just want that right one to come and make me happy. I want a guy who can tell his friends that he thinks I'm the only girl with an amazing smile, amazing voice, amazing body although I don't posses those traits. Whenever I think about my friends, I can't help but wonder if they ever think of me too. I sometimes wonder if transferring school will affect our friendship. For some, yes. I've grown far apart from my other friends. Those people who are only there when they needed me. For once, I'd like to be the girl everyone wants to be friends with. Okay, I sound so desperate but I know, I've matured and I'm better now. :)

Never Shout Never - Lousy Truth (Official Video)

2010-09-08T22:31:00.000-07:00

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

2010-09-08T22:10:00.000-07:00

Never Shout Never - First Dance (Lyric Video)

2010-09-08T22:05:00.000-07:00

Never Shout Never - This S**t Getz Old (Lyric Video)

2010-09-08T22:04:00.000-07:00

what is coooool

Never Shout Never - lovesick (Video)

2010-09-08T21:58:00.000-07:00

gdhfsdgdfgdgdgd

2010-09-03T04:40:00.000-07:00

Someone sent me a message that says, "Hey! I like you." I wasn't able to reply since Globe's pretty fucked up and I don't have load. That message made me smile and jump. You know the feeling wherein you feel like there are butterflies in your stomach? That was exactly what I felt when I read that message. For short, in tagalog, "kinilig ako." Yes, true. Well, who wouldn't? Out of nowhere you'll receive something like that. :"> I've had conversations with this guy before as to how he feels towards me. I try to ignore the fact that this guy really likes me 'cause everytime we see each other it's as though there's nothing. I kinda like this guy in some way. Since he's really sweet and kind and he's really cool. :> So, yeah. I don't really find myself attractive but I love the attention. Lol.

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older.

2010-08-25T07:10:00.001-07:00

School today. -___- `Twas boring. Lauren Young went to school today. \m/ K. Anyway, there were photographers everywhere. And the photographer was like, “Miss, upo ka dito. Kunyari nag-aaral ka.” And I was like, “Huh? Okay.” And so I sat there while he was taking our picture then when I was in our testing area, there he was again and I was taking my test. My guidance councilor called me and asked me to sit again at a certain chair and pretend to be taking a test. I have the most wasted hair kaya. -___- Then after which. My schoolmate and I went to Shang. Jeep to mrt. Mrt to shaw. Shaw to shang. Lol. Then we stayed at the smoking area beside Starbucks. Lol. We waited for our Lsm friends and so. And then there we met up with them. Stayed at the smoking area again. Then my ex came and I was doing everything to not look at him or even make contact with him since we’re not supposed to talk for like a year. Then when we were to go. My schoolmate called him and the plan was, he's going to bring me home. I agreed since my schoolmate was really yeah. =)) And my ex was really yeah. =)) So he went with me until the mrt station at Q. Ave. ;;) And yeah.

I had a great time since I saw my 2 crush. :”> And and the other one was with us and he’s really cute. And he thinks I looked cute tho my hair was really messy. Ohwell, wishing well. Good life. :D

2010-08-18T10:53:00.001-07:00

If watching, hearing and seeing you be with her is the only way I can be with you.. Let's just keep it that way.

2010-08-18T10:52:00.000-07:00

I am not a "hot" girl. I will probably never turn you on, or take your breath away, or impress your friends with the way I look. But I can make you laugh and make you feel wanted, and sometimes I guess I can be cute. I really wish I could be enough just once.

2010-08-18T10:47:00.001-07:00

I SMOKED THE DAY MY BOYFRIEND AND I HAD A FIGHT. BUT I SMOKED BEFORE WE HAD THAT FIGHT AND I HAVEN’T TOLD HIM ABOUT IT. I’LL TELL HIM TOMORROW AND I HOPE HE FORGIVES ME. PLEASE.

2010-08-18T10:44:00.000-07:00

We've been through a lot of fights but still, I learn to forgive her.I've hated her beyond anger but still, I forgive her. And whatever happens, I'll still be her sister and I'd stand up for her everytime someone wants to bring her down. :)

2010-08-18T10:40:00.001-07:00

Behind these smiles are problems that I myself can't fix at the moment.

The besssssst. ;)

2010-08-18T10:38:00.001-07:00

For my friends. :)

2010-08-18T10:35:00.000-07:00

I've told some of you about my plan of moving to California. Well, everything will happen on October. I haven't really made my decision but with what I'm going through right now and with what I sense is happening, I think I'd rather go far away from you. :) I mean, who needs a girl like me? Someone not that disciplined. Someone rebellious. Someone not worth your time. Maybe moving away is the best solution. (I'm crying right now) i never wanted to leave you all but if I ever move out, will ya'll remember me? Ya'll have been a big part of me. A huge part of me, actually and its hard to say good bye. I'm not good with those good bye's. So if ever I stop talking to you guys, that means I've made a decision to leave you all and start a new life. And that also means that I'm helping you guys move on and like for you to get used to me not being around. No one will pester your mobile phones with all those Group Messages. No one will put up a drama and all that. I feel that some of my close friends don't like me. Well, that's okay. It's your choice to hate me not mine. :) So, yeah. I hope to do the right decision. ;)

:|

2010-08-18T10:27:00.000-07:00

I have been missing out a whole lot. I ain't updated with whatever my old friends are up to. I don't get to hang out with them anymore. I feel like they're slowly drifting away from me. This is sad but I have to keep myself strong. I must survive whatever is going to happen. Whether they're going away or I'm moving away. I have been thinking about going to California with my dad and study there instead since I need a new life. I mean, it's not that I hate being here and talking to my friends but don't you think with what happened to me, I need to look for a better life. Something that will inspire me. California's an awesome place. I still am thinking about what I should do.. Should I leave them all behind or stay? :|

2010-08-04T09:21:00.001-07:00

THE FAMILY.

2010-08-04T09:20:00.001-07:00

2010-08-04T09:18:00.000-07:00

My nieces. :)

2010-08-04T09:15:00.001-07:00

But it seems to me girl lately, all the love is gone. Now, I don't want to trip and start a fight, but It's obvious that things are right. We need to find a way to get things back, to the way they used to be. But you say that it's over.

2010-08-04T09:13:00.000-07:00

Have you noticed those bags under her eyes? Those are there to show you how much she cares for you. She stays up late each night, not being able to get any sleep because she's worried about you and what you will do. She spends her night being more worried about the situation she's in instead of her test she has tomorrow. Those long endless nights of crying, wishing on eleven-eleven and just hoping for a miracle. She barely stays awake at school, all she wants is some sleep and to clear her head from everything that's going on. If you did care about her, you wouldn't let her be like this. You would do everything you can to change it all around.

What girls want.

2010-08-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

1. Get kissed in the rain
2. Have that one hot kiss where your pressed against the wall
3. Have a guy that thinks you’re the world
4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
5. A boy that whispers he loves you in your ear
6. Have that moment where you just gaze into each others eyes
7. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
8. When you’re not with your guy he’s all that you can think about
9. Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you
10. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
11. A guy who squeezes your hand
12. A boy that says he loves you and means it
13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window
14. A guy who is loyal
15. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
16. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
17. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable…not hot, fine, or sexy
18. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
20. A boy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends
21. A boy that tells you everything honestly
22. A boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family
23. A guy that will always let you win
24. A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
25. A guy who calls you at night just to say ‘hi’ and see how your day has been
26. A boy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better
27. A boy who will sit on the phone with you when you’re sad, even if you’re quiet
28. A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
29. A boy that will just randomly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
30. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
31. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
32. A guy who wouldn’t mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.
33. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
34. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he’s washing your worries/troubles away.

2010-08-04T09:11:00.002-07:00

I keep on thinking, " It's your loss, not mine. " But it's also actually mine. I chose to lose you. The only boy, who so far, holds the ability to make me smile faster than someone can snap their fingers.

2010-08-04T09:11:00.000-07:00

Hey remember me? I was always there for you. I was the one you talked with for hours and hours. I was the one you could tell anything to. And the one that fell for you. Doesn’t that mean anything to you? We can’t even have a conversation anymore.

2010-07-28T09:20:00.000-07:00

HELLO. I'M THAT GIRL WHO WENT THROUGH A LOT JUST TO SEE YOU. LIED AND CRIED. DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER ME?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHRISTOPHER MARK DELFIN S, DACANAY !!

2010-07-28T08:48:00.000-07:00

Hello there, brotha ! My brotha from another color. :> You won't get the chance to read this since you don't fucking know what sites I have access to. :)) Let's keep this short. :>; It's your birthday and you're 18 years old already. :D That's hot. In 2 years, I'll be 18 also. :D Anyway, we used yo do stuffs together. Like watching tv, eating, playing, taking a bath and more.We used to love each other but we bloody hate each other now. Not really hate but things aren't the same as before, right? You just have to agree. 18 years of a love-hate relationship. I've seen you get hurt. I've seen you break down. I've seen you during your best and worst times. I'm always here whenever you need me. Now that you're in the legal age, I hope you're more disciplined. You can distinguish right from wrong. I wish you all the best. Just always remember, I'm always here for you because you're a brother I can never replace. I LOVE YOU ! Peace. :D

I love this shop so much. :x

2010-07-26T09:32:00.001-07:00

http://popjunklove.multiply.com/

2010-07-26T09:30:00.001-07:00

You. :)

2010-07-26T09:29:00.000-07:00

I love my sister more than anything in this world. I tell her everything but she tells other people everything I tell her but it's okay. I think she's not yet into keeping stuffs. She told my mom my secrets and I hated her for that but despite everything I still am proud that she's my sister. >:D< I love you, Nicole. :-*

2010-07-26T09:24:00.003-07:00

2010-07-26T09:24:00.001-07:00

>:D<

Peace and love

2010-07-26T09:23:00.001-07:00

Hello, mom.

2010-07-26T09:22:00.001-07:00

7/25/10

2010-07-26T09:21:00.001-07:00

I didn't know what got into us but finally, we became so vain and took a lot of pictures. I just love to love my sister tho' I don't treat her right. :)

August 8.

2010-07-18T22:11:00.003-07:00

It's stuck inside my head, okay. Anniversary sana? :( If only..

Here's to you.

2010-07-18T22:01:00.001-07:00

I want you back. I sound desperate but I really do. You're really different from all those boys I've talked to. From all those boys I've had relationships with. I feel like you're the one for me. The one I'll marry. I love you I love you I love you. Kill me now please

2010-07-18T21:58:00.001-07:00

I WANT TO GET DRUUUNNNKKKKK

Bobo is me? Yes.

2010-07-18T05:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was one of the most memorable day of my life ! I went to Trinoma past 4 to meet up with my best friend. While I was walking there were so many thoughts running through my mind. Like, Will he be there? What could happen? Will issues be formed? I was paranoid, okay. Then we went to the MRT station. The train took off and still there are million of thoughts running through my shitty mind. We went down at Ortigas. Walked a gazillion miles before we reached Forever 21. :bd We went through the stuffs there. Hell, that store's enormous. O.o Like really huuuuuge ! Well anyway, after there, we walked to Shangri-La Plaza. We looked for a cab that could bring us to Parkwood Pasig 'cause my bestfriend and I will attend a party.Bloody Mandaluyong !!! Cabs won't even entertain usssss. :| Bloody world. 8-| Then we called the celebrant and told him that every single cab we asked don't know where parkwood is. Good life, eh? He said he'll just pick us up and so he did. Mind you, we waited for like an hour or less before he came but it's okay. ;;) Then we rushed to the venue 'cause 'twas really late already. Then when we arrived there. SPRIKINBOOOOOM !!!!! There were no girls. Only the 2 of us. WTF, eh? WTF talaga. There were a lot of boyss. They're all from LSM tho so it's okay. AND ATLEAST I KNOW SOME PEOPLE. Then I saw him. Adrenaline was rushing through me. I'm scared. Really Scared. I want to hug him. I'll just post my tumblr post below 'cause I'm tired na. Anyway, a lot of things happened. Like my bestfriend panicking and stuffs. Then we rushed and stuffs. I'm no longer in the mood to share whatever happened. Bottomline: I slept at my bestfriends house. :( I love you, Rona Santos. >:D< Thank you, Jorrize Leonardo for the effort, patience and concern. Owe you bigtime. >:D< Love you boooth ! :-*

My tumblr post:
I went to a party yesterday and I was expecting him there. My expectations didn’t fail me. I saw him there. :( I wanted to go to him and hug him really tight. I want to say sorry for all the wrong things I did to him. I want to ask him to stop smoking and drinking. I just want to hug him, really. :( I hesitated when my friends asked me if they want them to call him. :( I regret not talking to him. He asked me a question tho I know he’s already drunk but adrenaline rushed through my veins. He talked to me.The man I longed to talked to. The man I want to be with again. The man I’ve hurt beyond pain. The man I loved. Will there be another chance? :|

2010-07-16T07:13:00.000-07:00

AS I RECALL I KNOW YOU LOVE TO SHOW OFF, BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD TAKE IT THIS FAR

2010-07-16T06:44:00.000-07:00

HAD FUN TODAAAAAAY !!

Thank you, Rona Santos, Louise Rull, Jessica Romana, Nikka Reyes, Anelle De Jesus, Ansley Silvestre, Angela Tendencia, Gimly Melendres, Pia Magadia, Eimeren Rodriguez, Denise Serrano, Christine Pangilinan, Sam Quintan ! >:D< Love you guys. :*

Summer.

2010-07-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

While I was on my way to school this morning, I suddenly remembered my summer activities. I ha to go through summer classes to have passing grades on certain subjects. I took those classes at QCA and that school was not what I really wanted. I mean, I was used to going to a huge school and something like that but as time passes, I learned to accept how QCA looks. I mean, hello, I'll just spend a month or two there and good bye, QCA. But in that school, I learned to interact with people not of my level. I ain't saying any negative facts here. :) Boys liked me but of course, I never liked them back. But then those people there, I thought I'd never meet them. But they became my closest friends. They were the ones I spend my breaks with. They were the one I interact inside the classroom with. They've seen me through my ugliest look and cutest look. They've taught me a lot of lessons in life. They're the ones who kept my summer alive. I'll forever remember our friendship. Long-live summer mates. ;)

2010-07-06T06:21:00.000-07:00

Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.

2010-07-06T06:16:00.000-07:00

I ALWAYS WANT TO BE NEXT TO YOU IF TIME PERMITS.

Hello din mahal kong pandak. =))

2010-07-06T06:14:00.000-07:00

It'll certainly ring a bell to the guy I'm totally in love with right now. I'm not expecting things to be this awesome. I mean, he's just that guy I met during their prom night. He's that guy who mesmerized me with his smile. The guy who caught me off guard. The guy I danced with tho' I don't know him that much at that time. The guy I never though would like me back. He's the most bloody awesome guy I've ever met.He's tall, tall, tall, tall and gwapo and he's good at playing basketball. The first time he held my hand, my world stopped. I felt different sensations, it's so magical. He was like there to take care of me when I was really sleepy. I can;t explain what I felt when he asked me if he can court me. I was like, "Ohmyy." And I was laughing the whole time. I called my best friend to tell her what had happened but I just don't know what word fits the feeling I was having, then. I just kept on laughing and laughing on the phone. I'm like super kinikilig that time. After 3 weeks and 5 days, we're finally together. I love him and I'm not willing to risk him. I mean, he might stop courting me and wander off and he might find someone better than me. I just can't describe what I'm feelin'. FTW. I may not promise him a Forever but I'll love him as long as I can. I may not be the prettiest, sexiest girl with a very nice set of teeth but I cam make him laugh and I'd do every single embarrassing thing just to make him happy. I'd kneel in front of him to show I'm really sorry for whatever bad thing I might do. I don't want to cause him any trouble kasi I'm mabait. But yeah, I'll always be there for him. Through rough and cool times. I'm not perfect but I'm awesome.

Let's bring it back?

2010-07-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

STOP ACTING LIKE MY FRIEND KASI I DON'T CONSIDER YOU AS MY FRIEND ANYMORE. You know why? 'Cause we've totally drifted apart. You were always there whenever I needed you. You were just a text away. But as summer came by, we totally lost all communications. You had new friends and I'm not putting that against you 'cause there's nothing wrong with that but you chose them over me. I miss hanging out with you. Talking to you about a lot of stuffs. I just feel sad that you had to go and our friendship ends but I'm hoping that someday, we'll bump into each other ands we'd bring back old times.

2010-07-06T05:37:00.000-07:00

Finally, I finished reading the book, A million little pieces by James Frey. He thinks of himself as an Alcoholic, Drug Addict and a Criminal. He went to a Rehab. Acted tough, met friends, and fell in love. Through his stay there, he learned to accept his parents, fight the Fury, think about others, care for others, overcome his "disease" and become sober and he learned to decide for the right thing. That book inspired me not to do drugs and be an alcoholic because it's hard and you'll face a lot of consequences. I find it weird though, there was one time I had a dream about drugs. Like me using drugs and whatsoever. I DON'T DO DRUGS AND NEVER WILL. I can be an alcoholic but not an Addict. James Frey will be my guide and inspiration, I wish him all the best in life. His memory and the mark he left in me will forever live in me. He's one bloody motherfucking sober man. LONG LIVE, JAMES !

30 things I want to do before I reach 30.

2010-07-06T05:17:00.000-07:00

Have a tattoo.
Bungee Jump.
Water Skii.
Have another tattoo.
Buy a Polaroid.
But an old Camera.
Buy DSLR.
Buy at least 30 pairs of kicks.
Finish my studies.
Travel around Asia.
Party.
Go up a mountain.
Ho snorkeling.
Try diving.
Learn how to cook.
Buy my own house.
Be skinny.
Learn how to fix my bed.
Go somewhere far with Rona.
Go somewhere far with a guy friend.
Try going to jail.
Dance in the rain with a boyfriend.
Buy a Jessie (toy story) toy.
Be known all over the world.
Sky Diving.
Dance, Dance, Dance !!
Go out with my cousins only.
Earn at least 10 000.
Have piercings.
Buy my own gadgets.

2010-07-06T04:59:00.000-07:00

James: The only thing you need to know for sure is that I'm not leaving.
Lilly: Ever?
James: Yes. Ever.
Lilly. You're sure?
James: I am.
Lilly: I don't want to be alone anymore, James.
James: You won't be.
Lilly: I cried all day.
James: Don't cry again. Just think of the word ever.

2010-07-06T04:50:00.001-07:00

Lilly: I'm sorry.
James: Why?
Lilly: I got scared.
James: Why were you scared?
Lilly: I was scared you were leaving me.
James: I'm not going to do that.

2010-07-06T04:47:00.001-07:00

YOU NEVER LOSE BY LOVING. YOU ALWAYS LOSE BY HOLDING BACK.

2010-07-06T04:41:00.000-07:00

I have dreams. Big dreams. Dreams I wish to accomplish when I get older 'cause I believe that I will be stronger. I've been through a lot. I've been hurt, have hurt, cried, made someone cry. I've been through a lot of fights. Fights with my family, friends, boyfriends, teachers and people. I was loved. I fell in love, broke my heart and tried yo kill myself. I cut my wrist to escape from all my problems. I smoked and drank beer to escape and enjoy life. I did all nasty stuffs 'cause I thought I'd die through those but I found myself wrong 'cause until now, I'm alive and breathing. And when I met you, my perspective in life changed. I started to think positively and I am more open to whatever is happening around me. I now make people smile and laugh. I do believe in happy endings, fairytale endings. I love myself, well maybe, I love myself too much but that's how I want it. I want to stay happy, be happy and live happy.

2010-07-05T03:01:00.001-07:00

http://www.james-frey.com/a-million-little-pieces/

2010-07-05T02:59:00.000-07:00

If my heart had stopped at that moment I would have fallen happy and fallen full and I would have seen in life all that I had wanted to see and all that i needed to see. Fall. Let me fall.

2010-07-05T02:57:00.002-07:00

I am an Alcoholic and a Drug Addict and a Criminal.

2010-07-05T02:57:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY BESTFRIEND. :(

2010-07-05T02:55:00.001-07:00

The first time I saw you, my heart fell. The second time I saw you, my heart fell. The third time fourth time fifth time and every time since, my heart has fallen.
I stared at her.
You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Your hair, your eyes, your lips, your body that you haven't grown into, the way you walk, smile, laugh, the way your cheeks drop when you're mad or upset, the way you drag your feet when you're tired. Every single thing about you is beautiful.
I stared at her.
When I see you the World stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The World just stops and it is a beautiful place and there is only you. Just you, and my eyes staring at you.
I stared.
When you're gone, the World starts again, and I don't like it as much. I can live in it, but I don't like it. I just walk around in it and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It's the best fucking thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, beautiful Girl, is why I stare at you.

2010-07-05T02:54:00.001-07:00

I turn and I slowly walk away and I don't look back. It has always been a fault of mine, but it is the way I am. I never look back. Never.

2010-07-05T02:53:00.001-07:00

Leonard asks me if there's anything I need to know before he dies, I think about it for a minute, turn to him, say what's the meaning of life, Leonard? He laughs, says that's an easy one, my son, it's whatever you want it to be.

2010-07-05T02:50:00.001-07:00

He had me at my worst, you had me at my best.

2010-07-05T02:41:00.001-07:00

When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others.

2010-07-05T02:40:00.001-07:00

2010-07-05T02:36:00.001-07:00

WE ALL WANT CHANGE AND WE WANT IT NOW.

Love is our weapon.

2010-07-05T02:33:00.001-07:00

The past.

2010-07-05T02:32:00.001-07:00

Sacrilegious.

2010-07-05T02:31:00.001-07:00

California.

2010-07-05T02:28:00.001-07:00

Jane Doe.

2010-07-05T02:25:00.001-07:00

Seawhatseas.

2010-07-05T02:24:00.001-07:00

What is love??

2010-07-05T02:20:00.001-07:00

I love you 5

2010-07-05T02:15:00.001-07:00

Big City Dreams. :)

2010-07-05T02:08:00.001-07:00

♥

2010-07-05T02:06:00.001-07:00

2010-07-05T01:54:00.000-07:00

Every now and then, I feel sick. I feel like barfing and every morning I feel so dizzy and all that. I lack blood and I'm bulimic but I didn't know it will come to this. But what I'm trying to do is, let everything back to normal and like make the most of my life.

2010-07-05T01:51:00.000-07:00

Clare: Henry, what are you afraid of?
Henry: Cold. I am afraid of winter. I am afraid of police. I am afraid of traveling to the wrong place and time and getting hit by a car or beat up. Or getting stranded in time and not being able to come back. I am afraid of losing you.
Clare: How could you lose me? I'm not going anywhere.
Henry: I worry that you will get tired of putting up with my undependableness and you will leave me.
Clare: I won't ever leave you. Even though you're always leaving me.
Henry: But I never want to leave you.

2010-07-05T01:32:00.000-07:00

He said that he thinks there is only free will when you are in time in the present. He says in the past we can only do what we did and we can only be there if we were there.

2010-07-05T01:30:00.001-07:00

I'LL FLY TO OUTER SPACE THEN I'LL RETURN NAKED. MEHEHEHEH.

MEHEHEHEHE.

2010-07-05T01:29:00.001-07:00

I'M A GOAT.

2010-07-04T05:46:00.000-07:00

Things happen the way they happened, once and only once. I'm not a proponent of splitting universe.

2010-07-04T05:39:00.001-07:00

Overconfidence kill a lot of people.

2010-07-04T05:36:00.000-07:00

Joanne: How do you feel?
James: Suicide.
Joanne: What?
James: It's the only word that fits.
Joanne: You feel like killing yourself?
James: I won't, but at this moment, it seems like a reasonable option.

2010-07-04T05:30:00.001-07:00

I think love is a rare thing in the world. If you think you can have it with this girl, then fuck whoever tries to stop you and fuck their rules. Take the risk and do whatever you can do and try not to get caught. If you do get caught, do it again.

2010-07-04T05:16:00.000-07:00

Lilly: I missed you.
James: Good.
Lilly: Can I kiss you again?
James: Yeah.

She leans kisses me kisses me I am high. She kisses me.

2010-07-04T05:11:00.001-07:00

Fighting is an acknowledgement of existence.

2010-07-04T04:50:00.000-07:00

Care about what other people think and you will be their prisoner.

2010-07-04T04:48:00.000-07:00

When I see you the world stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it is a beautiful place, and there is only you. Just you and my eyes staring at you.

2010-07-04T04:35:00.000-07:00

The first time I saw you, my heart fell. The second time I saw you, my heart fell. The third time fourth time fifth time and every time since, my heart has fallen.

2010-07-04T04:23:00.000-07:00

I want a drink. I want fifty drinks. I want a bottle of the purest, strongest, most destructive, most poisonous alcohol on Earth.

2010-07-04T04:19:00.000-07:00

I'VE CAUSED YOU TOO MUCH PAIN AND I KNOW I'M NOT FAIR WITH YOU BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I STILL THINK OF YOU. I STILL THINK ABOUT THE THINGS WE DID BEFORE. I REMINISCE EVERYDAY THO' I TRY NOT TO. I HAVEN'T MOVED ON AND I WANT THIS FEELING TO GO. I LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU TO HEAR ME OUT. IF ONLY I CAN BRING BACK TIME, I'D KEEP OUR RELATIONSHIP GOING. HELP ME MOVE ON, PLEASE. :(

2010-07-03T02:03:00.001-07:00

Live and let love, do not judge, take life as it comes and deal with it, everything will be okay.

I THINK MEN WHO CRY ARE STRONG MEN

2010-07-03T02:00:00.001-07:00

2010-07-03T00:26:00.000-07:00

He has been broken beyond repair, wounded beyond the point of healing, abused beyond the point of recovery.

2010-07-03T00:20:00.000-07:00

He hugs me and I hug him back. It feels good.

Addicted.

2010-07-02T04:58:00.000-07:00

There is a coffee machine in the corner and I get up and I get myself a cup of coffee. I pot sugar into it to the point of saturation and I take a sip and it is hot and it hurts and I like it. My heart speeds up almost immediately and though it doesn't speed up like it normally does and though I am not addicted to coffee, it is still a drug and it feels fucking good. It feels so fucking good.

I look stupid, Thank you.

2010-07-02T04:51:00.000-07:00

I AM FUCKED UP BEYOND COMPREHENSION

Alone.

2010-07-02T04:43:00.000-07:00

I don't want to be alone. I have never wanted to be alone. I fucking hate it. I hate that I have no one to talk to, I hate that I have no one to call, I hate that I gave no one to hold my hand, hug me, tell me everything is going to be alright. I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with, I hate that I no longer have any hopes or dreams, I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on that I can find them again. I hate that when I scream and I scream bloody murder, that I am screaming into emptiness. I hate that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming. I hate that what I have turned to in my loneliness lives in a pipe or a bottle. I hate that what I have turned to in my loneliness is killing me, has already killed me or will kill me soon. I hate that I will die alone. I will die alone in my horror.

Fck Life.

2010-07-02T04:21:00.000-07:00

I still think about Michelle and I still miss her. I wish I could hear her voice or hear her laugh or see her smile. I wish I could sit next to her or call her or pass her a note. I wish I could smell her, touch her hair, look into her eyes. I wish I could hear her say it's okay, Jimmy, everything is going to be okay. I wish I could tell her I love her because I did and I do and never did it when she was alive. She was my only friend. She got hit by a train and killed.

Hello.

2010-07-01T05:37:00.000-07:00

Hi there. Do you remember me? I'm the girl that was willing to wait for you. I'm the girl that risked everything for you. I'm the girl that did everything to make you happy. I'm the girl that put up with your shit. Yeah, hello.